Floodgates of tears shake with anticipation, all order unwinds into a tangled nest of twine, thoughts that were clear before are shrouded in murky uncertainty. The battle between Brianna and change had begun.
I’ve always been skittish of big life changes. I love the fantasizing and creating Pinterest dream boards, but when reality comes barreling in, I come face-to-face with the same battle I’ve always fought. Myself vs. change. Decisions and changes that I make can affect not only the entire course of my life, but countless others that my life touches. That’s some terrifying responsibility! I’m working to make amends after a long history of butting heads with change. Yes, it’s scary, but preparation and self-confidence are formidable armor to don.
In a bold move for change, I recently turned in my two-week notice at work to accept a new job which I start on Tuesday. An important aspect of making life decisions is relaxing after you’ve made one and trusting that God’s got your back. Instead of fretting about if I’d made the right choice or not, I took 5 of my vacation days and booked a ticket to Florida! My old roommate lives near Orlando, so I bunked there and we had some memory-making adventures.
We visited Wekiwa Springs State Park and it was incredible. The park is enormous! Also, there are clear water springs where people gather to swim and kayak. We easily saw the spring floor through clear, sparkling water.
Also at the park were miles and miles and MILES of trails to walk on. According to my Fitbit, I walked 19,364 steps, 8.19 miles and had 140 active minutes that day. Although I will admit, I was kind of nervous the whole time that an alligator was going to pop out of the foliage. The only wildlife we ended up seeing were turtles and a turkey.
This vacation was the perfect distraction from sitting at home worrying if I had made the best career choice, wondering if my new coworkers will like me, or fretting about the universe of other things I have no control over.
I chose to use my recent change as a breath of fresh air and time see my amazing friend, exerting my energy on exciting new adventures. Now I’m looking forward with anticipation to the next adventure with the start of my new job next week. I know I’ll have a fantastic first week because I already decided to. I’m eager for all the “new’s” that are on the horizon. So, tke that, change!